“if you talk too much you might say something that upsets someone, so it is best to keep talking to a minimum.”
Isn’t the whole point to see how well you can handle someone when they are under stress? To not want to upset someone is simply a cop-out, a brilliant dance around their emotions. “Look! Look how well I can fool some one! Look at how well I’ve got them figured out!” That’s not love, that’s simply knowing that you’ve got someone at your disposal who you can take advantage of, someone who you can control to fulfill the empty pieces of yourself which you are incompetent of completing with your own mental capacities.
Someone might say you are lazy, but no, you don’t deserve that stipulation, you aren’t worthy of being called LAZY. For lazy is a virtue due to it’s self perpetuating drive to preserve itself at the heavy cost of time and emotion. You, you are only worthy of being called pitiful. You waste your time seeking approval after underhanded deeds, after proving to have flirted with Satan, your self-created god still forgives you! She is not your god. She is your toy, a toy who at the same time does not want to admit that you are not her self-projected crush. So fine, you be stuck in your instability. You suffer the fate you’ve created for yourself by not just letting yourself be itself. Go ahead, seek approval, get it, and suffer knowing how weak you are to give in to such futile existence at such an old age. Know that no matter how far you go, your brain is still limited in it’s scope of what it can imagine. THAT, my friend, is the metaphor we all know of as HELL. I won’t be floating any further down the river styx on your behalf.