I’m dying for self expression that sells. I want to write in such a way that I capture people’s attention. But I find that my personal escapades are at the mercy of my rotating emotions. I am looking of a structure that captures them and keeps them in line to the point of draining them of their need to attack me in moments when I am indisposed to tend to them, i.e. at work. Maybe I should just write at work, then I wouldn’t feel so compelled to pressure myself in my free time to “let it all out”. The compulsion to write is just getting stronger so much so that I have thoughts of I majoring in it. But college cannot be my only solution. I need to improve my abilities in the real world, not through my ability to gain a professor’s favor. I cannot escape back into the college fantasy land, I just need a viable outlet in the real world. Just imagine a real world outlet, where my skills shine farther than my GPA… where I actually get paid to learn through experience as opposed to paying for knowledge and a pat on the back. I’ve done it in finance, why not writing (I dare not call it literature)? I must persist… and if I need suppose I must find that support in the real world free of charge.