With many things, except money, I often do not dread the worst-case scenario the most. I dread the mediocre scenario. This is because if the worst-case happens, I am pretty damn sure that I will not go do it again. I will rationalize all sorts of reasons for why that particular “worst” is definitely not going to enter into my paradigm ever again, and I will build coping mechanisms (i.e. habits) that ward against these defined “worsts”.
But after having gone through a mediocre scenario, the passion derived from the “worst” escapes me. I have no real reason to repeat and no real reason not to repeat.
It is like a bad date, I know I will never see and/or date the guy again because of the disastrous events and feelings associated with the date, but at least I have a funny, drama filled story to tell. But a mediocre date, oh god, I could be doomed to repeat the same vanilla over and over in my efforts to force some value or at least a tickle of a feeling of excitement. But that is just one example.
The point is not to avoid the mediocre, it is to know what mediocre means and to learn from it sooner, rather than later. Identifying the mediocre makes the exciting shine.
There is that point where facts are suddenly drawn together by the mind to form a story. At that moment you see the sequence of events not as black and white facts floating like humming birds along your recent-past timeline, but as a separate sub-timeline that you apply a title to because it is now one piece. A split second after the facts are acknowledged as a “situation”, emotion is applied. The emotion sucks your energy away from what is going on in front of you forcing you to momentarily live two lives until the inital emotional wave subsides.
Normally this process goes unnoticed unless the emotion applied is one which leads you to believe that there is a problem to solve. For example, if the connected events bring on a rather large wave of fear, fight or flight kicks in, and you begin plotting your strategy in preparation for the worst case senario. You’re still sitting in class taking notes, but in your mind you’re watching a movie of just how bad it could be and planning what you are going to have to do when the time comes to face the situation. Luckily, you understand that the thoughts in your mind are indeed the worst-case senario, so it won’t as bad as you anticipate. Conversely, were it an event washed with a happy emotion you would still be planning, but without the connotation that the word “problem” usually brings.