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The Mediocre-Case Senario

The Mediocre-Case Senario

With many things, except money, I often do not dread the worst-case scenario the most.  I dread the mediocre scenario.  This is because if the worst-case happens, I am pretty damn sure that I will not go do it again.  I will rationalize all sorts of reasons for why that particular “worst” is definitely not going to enter into my paradigm ever again, and I will build coping mechanisms (i.e. habits) that ward against these defined “worsts”.

But after having gone through a mediocre scenario, the passion derived from the “worst” escapes me.  I have no real reason to repeat and no real reason not to repeat.

It is like a bad date, I know I will never see and/or date the guy again because of the disastrous events and feelings associated with the date, but at least I have a funny, drama filled story to tell.  But a mediocre date, oh god, I could be doomed to repeat the same vanilla over and over in my efforts to force some value or at least a tickle of a feeling of excitement.  But that is just one example.

The point is not to avoid the mediocre, it is to know what mediocre means and to learn from it sooner, rather than later.  Identifying the mediocre makes the exciting shine.

On Exploration

On Exploration

Once in a while I find it difficult to explore new ideas because I am not always aware of exactly where I got the idea to explore something new in the first place. Somethings just jump out at me and say “Hey! I fit into your paradigm perfectly! Study me.” Others just manifest slowly to the point that I am not aware of how surrounded by their essence I actually am until I become aware of it enough to seek out additional details.

It is in that seeking that I find it difficult to continue at times. Because once something of interest is on my radar I see it so often and suddenly realize that the idea was in no way unique… it has been starring me in the face for quite sometime… i just for some reason had internalized it to the point of being able to recreate it, all without knowing what I had done until I have finished one piece and go in search of further inspiration, only to find perfect substitutes already in existence.